|Sometimes it goes well|
That may sound narcissistic and egotistical but I truly believe that I need to put my safety first. I've already suffered one major and life-changing injury due to a fall and another one is in the cards if I keep falling off. If I fall off on XC there is a greater possibility that I will get seriously injured or worse.
The trainer has done a fabulous job with the mare but it comes down to confidence. Both the mare and I require a partner who can lend us confidence. This deficit of confidence is contributing to the downward spiral that is our partnership. It's time for the mare to find a partner who can give her the confidence to succeed and it's time for me to find the same, I think we will both be happier.
If I only wanted to do dressage and trail riding I would keep her in a heartbeat. I love this horse. I love riding her, but I want to event and for the two of us, this is not going to happen.
So we decided that I would not bring her home. She is with the trainer to be sold. It breaks my heart to sell her because I look at her sale ad and video and think, "I'd buy that horse."
I am confident this is the right decision for both of us but it's still hard and part of me hopes she sells fast so that I can move onto the next chapter.
|Our happy place|